Kickin' the Crank.

Today, it's official:  I'm kicking the crank.

It's only been a few weeks since I started taking the doctor prescribed drug, Adderral.  And in that 3 weeks, Israel and I have fought more than ever.  We are constantly bickering about something stupid.  I am an emotional wreck! Overly sensitive, easily agitated, and overly aggressive.  I'm sure the combination of steroids that first week didn't help... but there is definitely a big difference in my personality and emotional wellbeing.

At first when Israel mentioned is concern about it, I blew it off.  I thought he was fabricating the whole thing.  I knew he was against the medication to begin with, but I felt like I had no other option at this point and that I may as well try it.  Then, it started to become more and more clear to me that it was definitely not a beneficial thing for me.

My decision was cemented yesterday at the Neurologists' office when both the PA and the Doctor went off on soapbox speeches about how ridiculous it was that the insurance company wouldn't cover Provigil and how Adderral was the very LAST thing I needed.  And obviously... it wasn't worth my relationship.

So, today... I am a little bit tired...

... but I'm not wired and irrationally irritated.